its not that bad after all.

First things first, I'm f*cking drunk. Me and a bunch of my reps went hanging out at some place in libis. Thank God, for Cy... she sent me an email today asking me to send out my team roster and their bdays. Nix found out hat one of my reps celebrated his bday yesterday.. so there.. we cooed him and he gave in. INUMAN ITO!

I'm starting to like the people in Libis. Especially my reps, they're not the best ones that training can offer but I guess the most important part is that they are very eager to learn. The best thing about it is that they are serious at whatever they are doing. They fear CAFs and most of all they respect me. Not to give you a bad impression with my reps in Alabang.. I sometimes miss them. They are good too and they respect me. The problem is, I got so attached to a number of them..sometines I feel like my judgements are being clouded. I learned a lot from my past mistakes and I plan to keep the lessons learned. I had my shortcomings.. and when I really feel bad about it.. I often find convincing myself that I'm only human. I'm bound to make mistakes.

I felt really relieved that the people around me are starting to see how I've grown. One of my bosses, who is celebrating his bday today: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAM! thinks that I've matured a lot. When we talked about things, he said that he never expected to hear the stuff I've said judging from what I was before. I guess, I've been laxing. I told him, growth wise, i'm moving to Cubao for the right reasons. Then, I laughed and said its just an aftermath of being marooned. And it pains me to leave Alabang because I'm with the people i Love but then again.. i've depended so much to these people that I can't see myself sometimes. That in a way , they are becoming a hindrance in my career, I always feel that I'm still in junior high.

I'm really motivated and excited about Cubao and the opportunities that it can offer. I'm not expecting or something. I'm hopeful. I finally understood what that nun said to me. To be hopeful of the great things to come. I guess to finally understand a situation.. you have to be in it. I know that its not going to be like this everyday, like most of the companies.. we find loopholes and grey areas... but this is where I am today. And i should always be thankful of the blessings that God gave me.. and be happy about it. Its easier said than done, I know.

I'm still emotionally unstable when it comes to love. ZERO. But hell, it can wait. I feel that I wasted so much time being such a hopeless romantic ass, in a way I've been dreaming of the ideal man.. but just like one of those relationship propaganda books that I often come across FULLY BOOKED.. the ideal man is just crap. He doesn't exist. Who knows? I always have the feeling that Cinderella, Snow White and Rapunzel have the same prince charming but that of course is a different story. I know the right guy will come and when he does.. I'll be ready for him. Just not now.

So right now.. guess what? I have to prepare that hyrogen peroxide solution again. Thank God the two notorious pimples seems like vanishing. I don't want to be caught off guard when he comes. oh, yeah.. i can be superficial too.. hahhaha. Hell, yeah. Later.