bitter sweet goodbye.

[12:58] K: na miss kita in a way.
[12:59] P: ina way amf
[12:59] P: lol
[12:59] K: hahhahah
[12:59] K: kasi pag sinabi ko naman I MISS YOU.. i'm sure iiwasan mo yung topic tapos mag oopen ka ng iba
[12:59] K: kaya,, in a way na lang
[13:00] P: haha cge cge
[13:00] K: pero ok naman yun ah?
[13:00] K: at least andun pa rin yung thought di ba?
[13:01] P: syempre ! hehe :)
[13:02] K: pero i guess obviious naman siya in a way kasi i wouldn't bother to go online if i don't feel that way :)
[13:03] P: dun ba nattell un? hehe pwede rin
[13:03] K: yeah.. para sa kin
[13:04] P: pwede rin i guess :)
[13:04] K: bakit,.. pano ba yung sa yo? :)
[13:05] P: di ko lam. pwede na cguro un method mu :) ok un hehe
[13:05] K: hahahhahahhaha
[13:10] K: i watched the 300 ulit
[13:11] K: its still a great movie
[13:12] P: oo naman.. steg tlga that movie kasi e.
[13:13] K: have you moved on with me pao?
[13:13] P: galeng kasi pag super primtive un weapons nila pero kickass pa rin .. tas lam mu pa na historical fact that spartans were uber fighters so prang galeng nila
[13:13] P: eh?
[13:13] P: whatcha mean?
[13:13] K: i mean.. everything that you felt with me before.. have you moved on with that?
[13:14] P: i guess so. thats what we were supposed to do naman e di ba?
[13:15] K: so you don't feel a thing with me anymore? kahit magkita pa tayo?
[13:15] P: meron syempre. di naman mawawala yun e.. but ok lang.
[13:16] K: so i guess.. hindi muna tayo dapat magkita di ba? kasi it will make the situation worst..
[13:16] P: thats up to u. saken ok lang
[13:17] K: hahhahahhaha.. ok lang sa ken anu ba? tinatanong ko lang kasi ayoko na magkaroon ng ankward moments pag nagkita tayo
[13:18] K: because i guess in a way.. i moved on na rin
[13:18] K: although i have to admit that there are times that i wished we ended up differently
[13:19] P: good! no use crying over spilt milk di ba? tsaka its a sign that mature ka rin in a way kasi hindi overly dramaticized un ending kahit sana iba di ba? like i always say.. them's the breaks.
[13:19] K: alam mo yun.. sometimes my heart melts pag naalala ko how happy we were..
[13:19] P: pwede pa rin naman happy e.. ibang level lang di ba?
[13:19] K: pero at the end of it all.. i'm happy that we're still friends
[13:20] P: ako rin :) da coolness ako.. da hotness ka.. how can you go wrong? lol
[13:20] K: hahahhahahha
[13:20] K: yeah.. and i know i can confide everything in you :)
[13:20] K: thats the good thing..
[13:22] P: oo naman hehe
[13:22] K: i'm sure.. we will both get over this and tatawanan na lang natin to... pag naalala natin
[13:22] K: hahhahahah
[13:23] P: yupyup ^_^ im absolutely positive no
[13:24] K: we will have bottles of endless beers laughing about it one day ^_^
[13:24] P: endless beers.. wasted tayo nun hehe
[13:24] K: ang saya siguro nun! ^_^
[13:24] K: hahhahahhaha
[13:24] K: oo naman.. tapos pag lasing na tayo magbabasag tayo ng mga salamin ng kotse kung saan man
[13:24] K: hahhahahhaha
[13:25] K: ang weird nga lang ng story ng friendship natin hahahhahah
[13:25] K: pero ok lang yun.. at least unique :))
[13:25] P: sus.. so what di ba? mas interesting naman that way e
[13:26] P: and who gives a flying fuck na medyo abnormal nga sya? at least its not the run of the mill way how people get to be friends hehe
[13:26] K: hahhahaha
[13:27] K: but thank you for sticking around with me.. weird ako at times saka mean but im the most thoughtful girl ever!
[13:27] K: saka sweet talaga!
[13:27] K: you might be wondering why i asked you that question..
[13:28] P: lol.. syempre thoughtful and sweet ka tlga no :) hehe
[13:28] P: smart din.. basta wag saken ccompare
[13:28] P: hahaha joke joke joke
[13:30] K: i noticed kasi these past days when we talk parang ankward ka.. so baka kasi iniisip mo na naman na you are leading me on kung may masabi kang medyo sweet... tapos bigla mo na naman akong iiwasan.. eh i don't want us to get to that drama again.. medyo tiring kasi sya in a way eh.. when in fact, you are not leading me on naman.
[13:30] K: always remember that k?
[13:32] P: of course :) kakapagod tlga pag masyado madrama no. im sure lam mu na yan from experience with all the poeple youve been with.. sa una ok lang pero after a while parang exag na e. hehe. anyway, pareho naman naten lam na tapos na un.. parang it was something we both had to go through and we're definitely better for it rin naman so good thing sya. except for the stuff that happ[ened to u pero you say as good as fixed na sya do ganun na un. :)
[13:33] K: yup.. i'm doing really great now, pao :)
[13:33] K: i just want to clear things out with you.. and its good to know that you've moved on already.. so i guess we're both ok now
[13:34] P: nice! ^_^
[13:34] K: i just don't want to lose you lang kasi,.. thats why i have to bring this up
[13:34] P: ako pa! \
[13:35] K: you are a great person.. and what we had was really special to me... always remember that :)
[13:36] K: its something that makes me smile on a really tiring day :) and i never regret that you happen to my life because it was worth it :)
[13:37] P: ako rin e :) hehehe! basta if you need somebody samahan ka somewhere or labas ng galit or wala lang.. kulitan.. pwede ako malamang hehe. unless busy no. lolz
[13:38] K: ikaw rin.. if you need someone to talk to.. samahan ka... o kaya katawanan.. i will be there.. always. unless busy din ako :)
[13:39] P: hahaha syempre naman
[13:39] K: i'm so happy that i get to know you.. and i'm so happy that we get to talk about this :)
[13:39] K: the best ka talaga! :)
[13:40] P: dabes!
[13:40] P: kaw din dabes !
[13:40] K: although mayabang ka minsan.. pero ok lang...
[13:40] K: hahhahahhahahha
[13:40] P: hahaha
[13:40] K: dabes kiss ever!
[13:40] P: kapal! kaw dyan mayabang nu
[13:40] K: hahahhahahha
[13:41] K: samahan kita bumili ng shades mo..pag available ako... and i will be the judge kung pangit sya sa yo.. alam mo naman ako.. hindi ako sinungaling..
[13:41] K: sasabihin ko agad kung pangit sya o hindi...
[13:41] K: hahhahahhah
[13:42] P: hehehe cge cge
[13:42] K: you just have to pay me nga lang for my opinion.. and the price is mas mahal kesa dun sa price ng glasses mo!
[13:42] K: hahahhahaha
[13:43] P: nyehehe!

* So.. at least. Hey, I mean it when i said that i'm doing pretty great. We're really better off as friends :) There's no use crying over spilt milk.. you are right. And i'm happy that we had this conversation. I was happy that I had you... but hey, I've moved on. :) Another chapter in my life.. I'm so excited. Do your worst, life! I'm ready for it. :)

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it has to end this way. it will.. its ironic that we don't talk to each other the way that we do.. hell we don't even talk. how i managed to do it? I always put in mind that i am doing it so that you can be a better person. I can't hang around.. I can't be your doormat.

I will be happy soon.. I don't know how yet but I believe that time will be our leeway to heal the pain.

hey.. maybe its for the best, right? I already moved. I just can't go back anymore. Our memories are there.. somehow its holding me back. But i have to be strong.. this is the right way. This is how its supposed to be.

Eto ang pinakatamang gawin.. alam ko lang na tama siya.. kasi masakit.

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[01:22] kellieppoapac: alam ko naman dati pa.. you want me to say it in your face. na ako na yung lalayo.. ayaw mong mag decide kasi ayaw mong ma guilty ka.. pero you know what pao? maybe i really don't deserve you.. you have a point there. tama ka.. i deserve someone great.

yeah.. i mean it. there's no turning back now. You started it. I just don't have a choice. But to be honest and this is really weird.. we had a really pretty good run.

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I don't want to go over this again. As much as i could, I've been burying my head from the shitload of paperworks at work. I don't ever want to think that you are with the great gf as of the moment. I saved our history together... and I'm just waiting for the attachment to pop out in the screen as we speak... and i feel like i've been torn into pieces. I could prolly burst into tears right now. But anyways.. its part of my therapy.. I need to know when to stop.

[02:21] LPaoAPAC: kun mahaba ang daliri mu sa paa .. kasing haba ng sa kamay medyo weird na un
[02:21] LPaoAPAC: hahahahaha
[02:21] kellieppoapac: babe.. lahat na nagsabi sa kin.. sina jay.. celso margo na ampangit ng kamay ko
[02:21] LPaoAPAC: better grip ka pa sa feet than sa hands o
[02:21] kellieppoapac: parang panlalaki
[02:21] LPaoAPAC: theyre not
[02:21] LPaoAPAC: they arent
[02:21] LPaoAPAC: they are not
[02:22] LPaoAPAC: and they soft too
[02:22] LPaoAPAC: lol
[02:22] kellieppoapac: but anyways.. i think it doesn't matter naman eh.. what they think.. as long as you think its ok.. then i can go to sleep peacefully na sigurp
[02:22] kellieppoapac: lol
[02:22] LPaoAPAC: betcha dont remember that one
[02:22] LPaoAPAC: LOL
[02:22] kellieppoapac: i remembered din that!
[02:22] LPaoAPAC: yeah right
[02:23] LPaoAPAC: what would you have done if i just held your hand right then and there and didnt let go
[02:23] kellieppoapac: i think we compared hands eh for like a minute or something
[02:23] LPaoAPAC: coz i was thaaaaaaaaaaaaat close to doing so LOL
[02:23] kellieppoapac: you'll do that to your friend din naman di ba?
[02:23] LPaoAPAC: gutierrez - acw
[02:23] LPaoAPAC: hindi e :(

*but you let it go.. we could have been really happy.