fragments of Bs

sometime october

one morning just right after training. Things are blurry between us because of her.Its funny that I walk you out to your car.. I sat there and you look really worried.

Me: Hey cheer up. You'll be fine.
B: I'm ok. How are you?
Me: I don't know. I feel so bad for the girl.. she doesn't know a thing about us. I mean you guys are kind of dating.. and i came into the picture. If you need time i can really give you that. ok lang kasi sa kin kung nasa ibang place siya eh pero we are in the same place. pano kung pumayag siya na ok lang sa kanya yung ganung set up din? Yung walang relationship.. what are you going to do?
B: Ok lang ba sa yo yung ganung set up din?
Me: No.. i have to go.

He held my hand..his eyes staring at me.
B: No, Kel. Please don't go. You are the only good thing thats happening to me right now. Give me time to think.. don't make me choose. I need time.
Me: Ok. You going somewhere ba?
B: I'm going to Cabuyao. Family business. I'll text you later ok?
Me: Ok. I'll see you around.
B: You take care with your team breakfast. (pulled me close to him and kissed me.)
Me: (smiling) alright. See you later.
B: Bye, pretty.

* its weird that I've been thinking about us lately. You're not even the recent guy that I dated. This happened last year and yet the memories are still so vivid in my mind. As far as I know, i'm really over you. But then again.. before i go to sleep this morning.. its funny that I asked myself.. Em I really over you? And its weird that i can't make myself to say YES.

No, B! I'm really over you.