been dreaming of jesse for the past 2 days now. its weird. i don't know why.

today is eunice's wedding day. I decided to dodge the wedding ceremony. I don't want to get mushy or something.. believe me they have that effect on me. Shan and I will see each other at the lobby hall in Shangri La..maybe past half seven tonight. I have a date tomorrow with H. hmmmm.. i hope things will be ok. :)

I didn't mean to be vulnerable yesterday. I erased all P's txt messages because they have a weird effect on me. I hate feeling that way and I definitely hate myself for texting him suddenly. What em I thinking? grrrrrrrr... P! i'm so over you.

its so boring being single but its suffocating when i'm in a relationship. I feel great just being me at the moment.. i'm just crazy and stupid sometimes. :)