sad movies.

eunice finds it weird that I love sad movies. We've been talking about movies these past few days and she noticed that most of the flicks that I have on my list are either tragic, plain sad, extremely depressing or simply neurotic. I said to a friend last week that the mushiest movie that I watched these past days will be THE FOG. He laughed out loud. I think he's really crazy.

I'm in the office right now. And yes.. I'm blogging in public. Well, sort of. I'm really early today.. went here at around 4:30 pm to conduct interviews. I'll be out by 12 am tonight. I'm torn betwen spending the night with some friends or just go home to a nice movie waiting in my room. As i've said in my previous blogs, I have some catching up to do on mending my broken self.. and that includes reading a good book, playing ps, playing my guitar and watching movies. Its my mum's bday this coming monday.. i filed a leave and it was approved. Long weekend!! Yey... but then again.. there's something that I really dread on weekends.. I'm afraid that Alex might drop by anytime.. and I don't like the scenario. Every weekend I'm being pushed by some random faces of my family members to spend time with him. Gosssssh... when will they learn? But you know what.. here's the thing.. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that after all that's been said and done.. I'll eventually end up with him. Please God, make him busy this week. I can't afford another impulsive mistake. I don't want to hurt anyone.. not now. Not ever.

Here's the thing.. my life right now is really sad. But its not going to be like this for a long time. I guess the only sad part is the fact that I'm alone. But then again, I see it as an opportunity to rise. I have a lot of things in my mind right now and the love parts are not the biggest priority. Sure, I'm bored most of the times.. who isn't? I feel that this is the part where I'm supposed to think of my career advancement.. and that's the sole reason why I'm not dating anyone. So what's there to burn? I'm in this situation because I chose to be here.. I've learned that there's always a time to love and to let go..

there's a time to heal and to get back in the game. Right now, I'd say I'm in between. Hmmmmm... so boys, knights and princes (charming or not) .. be prepared when I get back.. because this is for sure.. I'm gonna rock your world. Hell, I will. :)

later.